AN UPDATE: I didn’t fall off the earth or disappear…I’ve been hibernating, reflecting, recalibrating and realigning.
Today is already the 2nd of January. I am starting to peek my head out of a communication blackout that I needed badly. I’ve heard this called a ‘device detox’ or a ‘tech withdrawal’, but that doesn’t cater for my cheeky binge on Netflix over the break or the FaceTime with my parents on Christmas Day.
2018 was fast, and despite my best intentions for it not to be, somehow furious. I laughed, learnt and loved freely. I traveled extensively, in search of ‘the wise ones’ – my friends, family, teachers and collaborators who consistently show me the way to a better version of myself.
I was studying so damn hard towards the end of the year here in Australia that I barely noticed the months passing. I managed to fly my gifts by hand to London, spend Thanksgiving with The Oracle in NYC, and work on the reconstruction of my website in LA. I also popped up to San Francisco to hang out with my bestie, and meet Elizabeth Gilbert, the work of whom I’d previously never read. It turns out that after briefly meeting her, then reading the big one – ‘Eat, Pray, Love’ – I am a bit of a fan of hers. More on that later…
When I landed back to Sydney I had the privilege of completing my last course to becoming a meta coach with Dr Michael Hall. Working with him for 8 intense days, some at 13 hours, getting a glimpse into his mind and the coaching legacy he has been instrumental in creating, was exhausting and intriguing, literally shattering, and exhilarating. More on that, and him, later… Coming down from that experience, and also recovering from jet lag, I mostly spent the break sleeping.
In this much-needed moment to pause and calibrate, I wanted to see clearly what I was doing and where I was going. Where had I been in 2018? Where am I going in 2019? I saw this as the window to check in on my own alignment. Helping others in their expansion and growth sits right at the top of the ‘dreams + desires’ list. I am lucky enough to have had the time to develop my skills in order to do so. With some effort, tears and sticky moments, I’ve been getting myself ‘out of the way’, for I’ve learnt that this is the only way we can truly help another human. Slowly and surely, I’ve been realising how to make sense of the noodle soup that has been my brain and varied skillset.
What would you like to leave behind in 2018? What would you like to cultivate in 2019?
I am a qualified and experienced teacher, coach and consultant. I want to help others find or improve the balance in their life, and show them how to guide themselves out of their own suffering. I’ve been taking my time to develop a framework within which to hold my current and expanding knowledge and intrigue of how we function as humans. I am excited to say, more on that very soon…
Until then, I’d like to ask you to consider what you would like to leave behind in 2018, and what you would like to cultivate in 2019?
I decided to firmly say ‘thank you, but its time to toss off’ to self-doubt and self-discounting, for they have been sat with their Machiavellian laughter in my blindspot for far too long. I am sure they will make a few cameos in this new year, but at least I know how they roll, the bastards.
In 2019 I will be cultivating self-love. I will be doing the things that fulfil and enrich me, with people that inspire me, and stepping into my own potential.
For now this migratory bird will be learning to how sit still here in Australia: The time for hiding is over.